Tag Archives: new pregnancy

Sinking In

Thirty weeks. This Friday, I will be thirty weeks pregnant.  Our little dino squiggles all day, punches and jabs at me and makes me cringe from the pressure from time to time. I am enamored with this little dance routine. … Continue reading

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Hello, Little One

How odd to answer that common question, ‘Is this your first?’ with, ‘Yes.’ All the while, I think, fully functioning baby? Yes, I hope so. Pregnancy? No. Baby? Sort of….not really…. I try not to be bogged down by this. … Continue reading

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Chocolate Covered Crying

I talk a big game. I say things like ‘Choose happiness’. I declare that I will think positive, that I will be brave and strong and tough and functional. I end my blog posts on happy notes. I work in … Continue reading

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Towards the Glow

Deep in the darkness, beyond twilight and hours from the ease of day over the horizon, night looms long and heavy. Trees stretch out high towards the midnight canopy, faint towers of white, branches tangling, clacking in the breeze. A … Continue reading

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Here, Today

What a long year it’s been. And it’s only January 16. My return to work was met with my general ‘announcement’ of pregnancy. I told my immediate coworkers, the teacher under whom I work, who was admittedly suspicious already. She … Continue reading

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Looking Back, Looking Forward

As the snow piles up around us, leaning in towards the windows of the house like a tired soldier, I stare out across the fields of white meeting skies just the same. This year we hosted Christmas at our house … Continue reading

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Parallels

Every day, I check for blood. Every day. Multiple times. Each bathroom trip. In the middle of the night, I switch on the grating light, snapping myself from sleep.  I inspect the white tissue for signs of loss. This week, … Continue reading

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