Tag Archives: loss

So Nice

This mother’s day, in northern alberta, moms are hoping for flowers, chocolates, cuddles and breakfast in bed. And rain. As wildfires rage across the province, including the massive blaze in Ft. Mcmurray that, to date, has spread to 156,000 hectares … Continue reading

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The Strongest Tether

Lately, I’ve been in a conversation with a friend who lost a baby a few years ago, mid pregnancy, due to unforeseen complications. I offered my condolences and my own story of losing a baby due to a missed miscarriage … Continue reading

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Lest, Indeed

November.   November 11th. Remembrance day. I’d never forget it. Anyway. A heavy sadness, this time last year. Lump in throat, crackling tears. A tiny life, grown below my heart. But memory of a life, apart. What isn’t now, what … Continue reading

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Chocolate Covered Crying

I talk a big game. I say things like ‘Choose happiness’. I declare that I will think positive, that I will be brave and strong and tough and functional. I end my blog posts on happy notes. I work in … Continue reading

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Towards the Glow

Deep in the darkness, beyond twilight and hours from the ease of day over the horizon, night looms long and heavy. Trees stretch out high towards the midnight canopy, faint towers of white, branches tangling, clacking in the breeze. A … Continue reading

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A Year Lived

2013 was a year unlike any other for me. I lived and loved more than I ever have, and alternately, I lost more than I ever have. Yes, I lost security and innocence and my first baby. I lost the … Continue reading

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A Child Not Born Today

Today was my due date. I’m not where I thought I’d be. I’m stronger and still frighteningly vulnerable. For all in my life that I have to be so, so thankful for, today brings with it a sting of pain. … Continue reading

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