Monthly Archives: December 2013

A Year Lived

2013 was a year unlike any other for me. I lived and loved more than I ever have, and alternately, I lost more than I ever have. Yes, I lost security and innocence and my first baby. I lost the … Continue reading

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Looking Back, Looking Forward

As the snow piles up around us, leaning in towards the windows of the house like a tired soldier, I stare out across the fields of white meeting skies just the same. This year we hosted Christmas at our house … Continue reading

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A Creature Is Stirring or Declaring ‘Pregnancy’

The Christmas season is upon us, and the glorious break from work draws near. I wash my hands excessively, trying unsuccessfully to fend off the colds and flus and booger jambalayas of Kindergarten. Straighten dresses, fix hairbands, wipe faces. Line … Continue reading

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Parallels

Every day, I check for blood. Every day. Multiple times. Each bathroom trip. In the middle of the night, I switch on the grating light, snapping myself from sleep.  I inspect the white tissue for signs of loss. This week, … Continue reading

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Weeks and Weeks

For weeks and weeks, my posts have taken a turn, heavy on the melancholy, light on the upbeat, hopeful tone of the summer. For weeks and weeks, I’ve been lax about posting, I’ve not been present, I’ve been in a … Continue reading

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